How do we know?
How do we ever know whats right?
When i gaze up at those stars at night
I feel lost
When i once felt comfort
Nothing feels right anymore
Not like it used to
So will i ever know?
Will i ever know what’s right ?

B122 - The open university

So basically ive been studying the course b122 an introduction to retail management and marketing since may this year and am now coming to the end of the 6month period. Now i have made sure i have sorted out my next module (world archaeology) it seems that i cannot wait to begin and for the materials for it to be sent to me. I have always loved studying history and have never studied classics so i am really looking forward to it. The only problem is i still have to finish my business module. I am still yet to complete my end of module assessment worth a huge 50% of my whole 6month module, however although i know this information i still cant seem to find the enthusuasm to just sit down research and write it. Any work i do towards this module now just seems like a chore rather than something i enjoy to do like i did at the beginning. I really hope i make a good job of it and finish the course with a high however i only have just over a week so i guess we'll just have to see how things go :/ x

Love

Ok now when buying makeup or face care products or pretty much anything these days I tend to judge products heavily on reviews and reccomendations so I just thought id list a few products I personally absoloutely love. (in no particular order)


1. The Body Shop - Vitamin E moisturiser range

- Moisture cream (£9)
- Night Cream (£10)
- Moisture Serum (£10)

For just 50g of product this range is quite expensive however well worth it. Although the pots are only small due to the quality of the creme's you only need a small amount and therefore they last quite a while. The body shop also tend to have a deal on every so often to purchase all three for just £15. I use this product day and night they are so good and smell divine, the night cream isnt too overpowering and is actually quite relaxing before going to bed.


2. Sleek - Any of their palettes

- Au Naturel £6.50
- Oh so special £6.50

These palettes are absoloutely amazing and for just £6.50 you can't not get them. The pigment of all the shades and colours is amazing. Each palette contains both a mix of shimmer and matte colours so they give you a varied range. The natural palette is perfect fr every day wear and i have actually used it almost every day for the 2 weeks ive had it. Really really reccomend these palettes they are amazing for blending and so cheap - perfect for people beginning to experiment with makeup and blending techniques but also a mist have to every make up fan.




3. Lush - Ultrabland

- Ultrabland cleanser/ makeup remover (£6.45 - 45g) (£10.25 - 100g)


This product is pretty expensive and i havent had too much experience with it, however i bought it yesterday and am amazed at just how good it is. I tend to wear estee Lauders double wear on a daily basis which is impossible to get off at night due to its long wearing staying power, no matter how many normal face wipes, cleansers and toners ive tried it just doesnt completely budge. After using this product just the once it took off every trace of makeup/ impurity on my skin and after following up with a toner i was amazed to see that nothing was left on the pad. So so far so good however as i said it is quite expensive but my skin feels amazingly fresh, clean and so soft, so if the pot lasts me a fair while which i think it will this will be on my rebuy list months after months.

I purchased this product after seeing a number of amazing reviews about how good it is at fighting and preventing spots and completely cleared up achne. My skin isnt too bad but i do tend to wear a lot of makeup especially when i go out so my skin isnt in amazing condition i will review this product for you again in a couple of months to see just how well it worked or didnt work for me.





4. Avon - Little black dress perfume

- Little black dress eu de parfum (£13 - 50ml)


I never actually expected this perfume to be as nice as it actually is, i bought it as a spare of the moment thing so that my order would be enough online to receive free delivery and to my suprise its gorgeous and is now my every day perfume. It is the perfect combination of sweet and floral but isn,t too sickly. I absoloutely love this perfume and will be tasking full advantage of avons offers ( buy 1 get another for £2 ) Look out for more of their perfumes they are amazing value for money and if you are unsure of what to get you can always check reviews online or ask your representative their opinion, plus their is occasionally testers of certain perfumes in the avon catalogue.







5. Boots - Boots own coconut and almond hair range

- Intensive hair mask (£2.02 - 350ml)
- Shampoo (£0.99 - 100 ml)
- Conditioner (£0.99 - 100ml)


This range honestly smells divine and is sooo cheap. I absoloutely love boots own products and this is why. Amazing products that work wonders at such a great price. The intensive hair conditioner works amazingly on normal to dry hair and doesnt leave a creasy layer over your hair for days like others tend to. I try and use the mask a couple of times a week and its made my hair so much shorter. If your hair is badly damaged then this mask will do little to help it get back to its former glory, however once youve used a treatment that does this is the perfect range to keep it that way.





So there is just 5 products that i think are amazingly good and also great value for money. These are all items i use on a daily or weekly basis that i personally love. If anyone tries any out or already uses them id love to hear your thoughts especially about the ultrablank cleanser. If you wish to also send me any reccomendations on similar products or better products i will love you forever :D


Lamb x

My new babies

Ok so after much effort i managed to get them to keep still just long enough to capture a decent picture of them both.

so introducing ... Luna and Millie just 7 weeks old :) x

Tiny balls of fluff

Ok so basically today I went to a tutorial for my open university course where we talked through the final exam assessment worth 50% of the whole module. The thing i was honestly amazed about was the amount of people who actually turned up. My tutor Rob travels from near liverpool to milton keynes for every tutorial to help us do the best we can in our assessments however out of a staggering 44 people on the course only 4 of us turned up, i was quite disgusted by this to be honest.

Anyways what i mainly wanted to mention and what i am so excited and happy about is the 2 new members of my family. After my tutorial i went to pets at home and bought 2 new beautiful baby gerbil girls. They are both so so lovely and although they are tiny at only 7 weeks old they are so happy to be handled and had cuddles with me while watching x factor. I will soon take some pictures of them both and put them up here but for now i still need to name them both :D

Yes i am 19 but when it comes to tiny cute balls of fluff i seem to revert back to being a child :)


Lamb x

It's been a long time coming

So as you may already have noticed I haven't actually used this blog for a very long time, however after stumbling across a friends blog I thought why not give blogging another go, you never know i might actually stick to it this time.

After reading through a few of my old posts I can honestly say that I have matured very rapidly over the past few years. Granted this is through a lot of bad but also a few good experiences. But we learn from our past mistakes right ? Well wrong in my situation as I seem to make the same mistakes over and over when it comes to men, will this ever change ? I have no idea but i hope so.

Right so me at the moment: after coming home from UCLAN University I am now working for Morgan Swann as a claims specialist which I throughly enjoy and am also studying my degree through the Open University. As you may have seen from yet another quite old blog on this profile I do really enjoy photography (if i ever have the time to do it these days), it is something I would love to continue but have come to realise that it will never be anything but a hobby.

So thats me at the moment, my life in a paragraph. I am generally an opinionated person and enjoy writing in general therefore I am going to try and write posts regularly but with how things are at the moment im not making any promises :P


Lamb x

"A dog has no use for fancy cars or big homes or designer clothes. Status symbols mean nothing to him. A water-logged stick will do just fine. A dog judges others not by their color or creed or class but by who they are inside. A dog doesn't care if you are rich or poor,educated or illiterate, clever or dull. Give him your heart and he will give you his. How many people in this world can truly make you feel rare, pure and extraordinary? "

So many of us in life are blinded by the troubles and problems infront of us that we can no longer see the simple facts. I to am exactly the same when it comes to love and relationships there is always an if and a but, but if we can all find someone we can love unconditnaly just like a dog loves his owner, who we can give our heart to then im sure that person will give us theirs in return, to cherish and always carry.
People worry about money they show greed and jealousy, they are more concerned with these feelings and possesons that they block out the most important strongest feeling ... love.
Most of all we worry about what others think, what they will say and if they will judge us but the quote above made me sit back and think to myself, who cares!? Who honestly does?
As long as im happy i dont.

Its really quite simple if you feel a certain way about someone live it or you'll live to regret it!

Is there room for three?

You say you love me but yet you have no clue
I really can’t describe these feelings for you
I don’t want to do this don’t want people to hurt
The third and the fourth being just like the first
I really don’t mean to honest it’s not my intent
And from now on I think I will try and prevent
Doing it again you see its déjà vu
Only this time He is being replaced with you!

You say you love me but yet you have no clue
Ill never understand these feelings for you
Just like him I never want you to hurt
This is why you must be on constant alert
I’ve seen it happen I’ve seen his heart break
For nights on end I lay there awake
Thinking about when and if it will happen
Decide I can’t do it I must try and forget him?

You say you love me but yet you have no clue
You see as well as for him theirs feelings for you
But I think I’m afraid I love him too much
For now I have no choice but to desperately clutch
To every feeling until I’m emotionally free
You see I love him and he loves me.
I’m really not sure if there’s room for three
I think I should minus two which just leaves me!

A dearest friend?

A dearest friend within my bed, cleanly made with sheets so dirty.

The kindest words within my head, but are they real? can i take them literally?

A dearest friend within my bed, cleanly made with sheets so dirty.

A players skill best on the field, after taken astray is he so different?

A dearest friend within my bed, cleanly made with sheets so dirty.

I am so confused my thoughts mixed up, am i naeve or is this serious?

A dearest friend? within my bed? cleanly made with sheets so dirty!

Just me

I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been tryin to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wonder what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by impostors everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
I'm the only one who's noticed
I can't be the only one who's learned
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wonder what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me!

ok so for so long i've felt like i have to change to "fit in" and to make everyone happy but now i think im slowly starting to learn that it's just not possible, infact that its quite impossible to keep everyone happy all of the time unless you are an utter sheep and well that really isn't me. as most people will know the lyrics above are from Gavin Degraw's song: i don't want to be. i stumbled across this song when i decided to download and watch all the one tree hill episodes from series one. after just a few episodes i actually listened to the lyrics and it really made me think. why ? why am i changing for other people? why do i want to change at all? The fact is i really don't need to, i got this far in life being me and yeah i know i may of made quite a few mistakes along the way but thats living right. if people don't like me for who i am then im sure i can find better who do. the people i have in my life who have always been there have stayed cause i am who i am and if i change for new people that don't really matter i could risk loosing them. so, why bother?
I am me and thats all im ever gunna be
im not perfect... far from
but imperfections are what make people beautiful
:)

Best Friends Perspective

Well, One persons perspective,
is very different from anothers
while one friend will remain protective
another will leave for there lover!

He misses her when hes away,
but they know everything will be
when he comes back for the day
they are the same as always you'll see.

while term time seperates
she stays with her friends
most of them he hates
but despite this fact he makes amends

time spent at the lake
walks in the park
its a good job he likes sponge cake
and dancing in the dark!!!

By The Best Male Friend :D

Dream

I lay awake, eyes closed it's you i see,
cold at night i wish for you to craddle me.
Sometimes i feel the pain is just too much to bare,
but then i smile and remember to dream,
your always there !

Always the chocolate cake never the sponge!

Always the chocolate cake never the sponge!
But what if this chocolate cake wants to be a sponge?
What if she cannot handle the icing thats placed upon her?
She’s so sweet but things soon turn sickly.
You confuse me!
I had it all planned out in my head,
Until you came along and made me think about what you said,
And now I can’t decide.
My decision is split,
And now I’m not entirely sure about where I can fit.
In this world all to familiarly full of pain,
I’m sick of playing this stupid game.
The stakes are too high; I cannot take it any more,
I’m fed up of being called a tease and a whore.
So now can you see?
This just isn’t me!
I am a sponge so everyone …
PLEASE LET ME BE!

Far

Every time I think you’re feeling down

Every time I sense you frown

A beat will miss, deep in my heart,

When I think of us so far apart.

Every time I think of you so far away

I look forward to that special day

Your eyes on me, your hand in mine,

they're we'll stay, we'll waste no time.

The broken

The vital organ, while still beating,

Will keep you alive, needing no healing.

When mine has been divided in half,

Needing your sealing,

How is this body, this shell still breathing?

It shatters like glass, when I hear your name being said,

Hearing about the tears you have shed and how I am to blame.

Each shard belongs to you to put together and protect,

Or is this vital organ…… my heart,

One possession, you will never collect?

It shatters like glass, when I hear your name being said,

Hearing about the tears you have shed and how I am to blame.

The vital organ, while still beating,

Will keep you alive, needing no healing.

While you are close its whole

Needing no sealing

Now I see why that body, that shell carried on breathing.

A masked reality

Like a mask upon my face at a masquerade;
i hide how i really feel, i escape my reality.
However when alone it re-escapes me.

The darkness comes over you like a disease
soon it will take over and i'll sink too deep
with no escape i can't struggle to my feet.
All you can do is let it consume you,
roll over and hold yourself together,
until it's over and you're free once more.

However are you free?
How can you be ?
When what you call reality is just a mask,
a simple mask to hide the truth.
To brighten the darkness.

A place to rest

Head on my knees, tears soaking through my jeans,
Legs pulled up towards my chest,
black mascara stains streaking my vest.
But yet it doesn't feel bizzare,
instead kind of nice.
The weight of my head falls down where it needs to be.
Until your here and my heads lying against your chest,
my knees are where my head shall stay and rest.