It's been a long time coming

So as you may already have noticed I haven't actually used this blog for a very long time, however after stumbling across a friends blog I thought why not give blogging another go, you never know i might actually stick to it this time.

After reading through a few of my old posts I can honestly say that I have matured very rapidly over the past few years. Granted this is through a lot of bad but also a few good experiences. But we learn from our past mistakes right ? Well wrong in my situation as I seem to make the same mistakes over and over when it comes to men, will this ever change ? I have no idea but i hope so.

Right so me at the moment: after coming home from UCLAN University I am now working for Morgan Swann as a claims specialist which I throughly enjoy and am also studying my degree through the Open University. As you may have seen from yet another quite old blog on this profile I do really enjoy photography (if i ever have the time to do it these days), it is something I would love to continue but have come to realise that it will never be anything but a hobby.

So thats me at the moment, my life in a paragraph. I am generally an opinionated person and enjoy writing in general therefore I am going to try and write posts regularly but with how things are at the moment im not making any promises :P


Lamb x

"A dog has no use for fancy cars or big homes or designer clothes. Status symbols mean nothing to him. A water-logged stick will do just fine. A dog judges others not by their color or creed or class but by who they are inside. A dog doesn't care if you are rich or poor,educated or illiterate, clever or dull. Give him your heart and he will give you his. How many people in this world can truly make you feel rare, pure and extraordinary? "

So many of us in life are blinded by the troubles and problems infront of us that we can no longer see the simple facts. I to am exactly the same when it comes to love and relationships there is always an if and a but, but if we can all find someone we can love unconditnaly just like a dog loves his owner, who we can give our heart to then im sure that person will give us theirs in return, to cherish and always carry.
People worry about money they show greed and jealousy, they are more concerned with these feelings and possesons that they block out the most important strongest feeling ... love.
Most of all we worry about what others think, what they will say and if they will judge us but the quote above made me sit back and think to myself, who cares!? Who honestly does?
As long as im happy i dont.

Its really quite simple if you feel a certain way about someone live it or you'll live to regret it!

Is there room for three?

You say you love me but yet you have no clue
I really can’t describe these feelings for you
I don’t want to do this don’t want people to hurt
The third and the fourth being just like the first
I really don’t mean to honest it’s not my intent
And from now on I think I will try and prevent
Doing it again you see its déjà vu
Only this time He is being replaced with you!

You say you love me but yet you have no clue
Ill never understand these feelings for you
Just like him I never want you to hurt
This is why you must be on constant alert
I’ve seen it happen I’ve seen his heart break
For nights on end I lay there awake
Thinking about when and if it will happen
Decide I can’t do it I must try and forget him?

You say you love me but yet you have no clue
You see as well as for him theirs feelings for you
But I think I’m afraid I love him too much
For now I have no choice but to desperately clutch
To every feeling until I’m emotionally free
You see I love him and he loves me.
I’m really not sure if there’s room for three
I think I should minus two which just leaves me!

A dearest friend?

A dearest friend within my bed, cleanly made with sheets so dirty.

The kindest words within my head, but are they real? can i take them literally?

A dearest friend within my bed, cleanly made with sheets so dirty.

A players skill best on the field, after taken astray is he so different?

A dearest friend within my bed, cleanly made with sheets so dirty.

I am so confused my thoughts mixed up, am i naeve or is this serious?

A dearest friend? within my bed? cleanly made with sheets so dirty!

Just me

I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been tryin to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wonder what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by impostors everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
I'm the only one who's noticed
I can't be the only one who's learned
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wonder what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me!

ok so for so long i've felt like i have to change to "fit in" and to make everyone happy but now i think im slowly starting to learn that it's just not possible, infact that its quite impossible to keep everyone happy all of the time unless you are an utter sheep and well that really isn't me. as most people will know the lyrics above are from Gavin Degraw's song: i don't want to be. i stumbled across this song when i decided to download and watch all the one tree hill episodes from series one. after just a few episodes i actually listened to the lyrics and it really made me think. why ? why am i changing for other people? why do i want to change at all? The fact is i really don't need to, i got this far in life being me and yeah i know i may of made quite a few mistakes along the way but thats living right. if people don't like me for who i am then im sure i can find better who do. the people i have in my life who have always been there have stayed cause i am who i am and if i change for new people that don't really matter i could risk loosing them. so, why bother?
I am me and thats all im ever gunna be
im not perfect... far from
but imperfections are what make people beautiful
:)

Best Friends Perspective

Well, One persons perspective,
is very different from anothers
while one friend will remain protective
another will leave for there lover!

He misses her when hes away,
but they know everything will be
when he comes back for the day
they are the same as always you'll see.

while term time seperates
she stays with her friends
most of them he hates
but despite this fact he makes amends

time spent at the lake
walks in the park
its a good job he likes sponge cake
and dancing in the dark!!!

By The Best Male Friend :D

Dream

I lay awake, eyes closed it's you i see,
cold at night i wish for you to craddle me.
Sometimes i feel the pain is just too much to bare,
but then i smile and remember to dream,
your always there !